Bob Mayo, Stonepoint Member
Last February I wrote a blog with this title. I looked at it today and found it mostly talked about my start in re:generation. With this blog, I would like to talk about that a little, but also mention a few other lessons I believe God is teaching me.
Re:generation—we are starting our last book! I find that amazing. It has been 8 months so far and we still have a few more to go. Going through re:gen has been both a great blessing and a great struggle. But I would not trade it in. One basic thing that has happened is that I have met five guys that I would have probably not had the opportunity if we had not put ourselves in the program. It has been a blessing to go through this with them. Our sharing times are open and honest. But more importantly, God has been teaching some things that I really needed to learn. One of the main things is to trust HIM! It has been a struggle for me to believe that God really loves and cares for me. I’m pretty sure I’m not the only Christian with this problem (sin, actually). Is God worthy of our trust? I can honestly say, absolutely yes. It may not always “feel” comfortable, but I have come to believe that I can trust HIM with my life and my death, for that matter.
Faith vs. Feelings—a friend recommended a book to me not long ago. I have been reading it ever since. It deals with fear, and especially the fear of man. I am learning a lot that my people-pleasing life comes much from fear of man. Basically, when we have fear of people, they own us. Now we Americans don’t like to think that we are owned by anyone. But being in fear of someone puts you under their control. The thing is, it’s doubtful if anyone is totally free from the fear of man. The book asked one simple question to show this: How are you when it comes to evangelism and witnessing? It’s doubtful if any of us have been totally free from fear in this area, some (like me) more than others. One of the main premises of the book is that we in America have become a people who live by feelings or emotions. That includes Christians. Take a lot of our contemporary music today. Don’t get me wrong, I like a lot of contemporary music. But so much of it is about feeling good about God’s love, grace, etc. The Bible is implicitly says: “The just (or the righteous) shall live by faith.” (Habakkuk 2:4; Romans 1:17). It has been said that when Martin Luther read Habakkuk 2:4, that it stirred his heart so much that it led to the Reformation movement. But it’s easier and sometimes more comfortable for us to live by feelings. Lord willing, I will have more on this at a later time. Now, God made emotions, but they are not to be the ruling force in our life.
Just for Fun—did you know that there was such a thing as the “Make Uncle Bob Happy day?” I don’t have time or space here to go into the genesis of this day, but it has been going on here at GFA for 12 years. It started with something as simple as me writing an email to our IT department and asking for a new mouse for my computer. That innocent act on my part turned into an annual event (not the asking for a mouse part, but the making Uncle Bob happy part☺). Well, October 13th was the day for this year. Secretly, OK, maybe not so secretly, I have been hoping for this day to go away. But it seems to have a life of it’s own. Sometimes it resulted in a really big group coming up to my area and surprising me with singing cards and a big sign on year, to balloon bombings of my office, to something smaller like this year when a group of friends came up to my work area and sang a song they made up to the tune of Twinkle, Twinkle Little Star, and just standing around talking for about 20 minutes. Regardless of how it is presented, it seems to happen each October. I find this annual experience both humbling and encouraging at the same time. Humbling because of feelings (don’t live by them, please) that I don’t deserve it and encouraging because it is nice to be loved appreciated once in a while. I really do appreciate the effort that the staff goes through to pull this off.
Well, that’s it for today. I pray that we will grow in our faith and learn to trust our Lord at all times. We never see really what is really going on in the spiritual world. But to put in today’s vernacular, God has our backs. He will never disown or desert us. Praise God!